Anguish Alone with my mind I have wrestled my thoughts Til the strength has been sapped from my soul. Now I feel so defeated, so lonely, so lost. Will I ever again be whole? It hurts me to speak. Every time that I do All the aching rekindles the pain; But I know if I can't overcome this torment I will soon be completely insane. Even now with my hurting, my mind just won't stop All the thoughts spinning round in my head. Why can't I pretend there is nothing wrong? Or admit that a part of me's dead? But I know in my heart something's very wrong... To concede would be fantasy. And death doesn't hurt so. It can only relieve... And this hurt's very real deep in me. I don't want to give up, for I know that is wrong; And to give up cannot truly solve, So I'll hold on ‘til everything's all right again And remember the earth does revolve. Round and round it does turn, just as day follows night And these thoughts whirling wild through my brain; But as one day brings rain and the next bright sunshine So, in time, I shall find peace again. by © Barbara A. Duits 1999 Return to Index HomePage